It is quite rare, to the point that I can’t remember the last time, that I will have occasion to dress during my regular work week. But last night Jules asked Nadine to dinner. I was quite apprehensive to accept, considering the events of the past bit. Nonetheless I obviously agreed.
The dress I have on, I bought for $1, at a garage sale. We were going to try and sell it on eBay. I was all set to put up the ad when I looked at myself in the dress modeling it. It was then that I decided that I could not possibly bear to part with such a cute little dress.
In the photo, I really like the dress, the boots, and the necklace. I really like the necklace! I purchased it many years ago and have rarely comfortably matched it to anything. But I think the pop of red in the otherwise all black outfit looks really good. The one thing I don’t like about the outfit are the nylons. I really need them to be much thicker so that they don’t stretch so much on my legs to where they don’t look as jet black as the rest of the outfit.
An update on the home front. Jules and I have spoken quite a bit since Saturday night. The issue at hand, simply put, is that of responsibility. I tend to accept responsibility and she has tended to avoid responsibility. Not so much in regards to house chores, but in terms of what I believe we all need to do, be responsible to ourselves. Responsible for our own feelings, our owns hopes, our own dreams, our own desires. Jules’ heart was so crushed by her family that she lost her muchness.
I have worked hard to do it for her, and while it has helped, it has also hurt. She has done what I suggested but this has come at the price of resentment towards me. This has obviously created some pretty big problems for us.
At some point, I will fill you in with Jules’ plan of attack for herself. Just not yet.
Stay tuned.
Listen to the real you.
Love yourself more and maybe others will love you back even more.
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