I think when this photo was taken I was 16. I could be off a bit, but that is what makes the most sense to me at this point considering my history.
Can I first point out, what am I doing with my hand? What is that, the supposed gesture of a real girl? Okay and secondly, what is that look on my face? Again, the expression that I thought a real girl would make? OMG, hilarious!
Oh and one more thing, that was my real hair! Wow, a photo of me, as a female, with my real hair! Crazy!
Okay, so I was pondering some of my earliest experiences cross dressing and this occasion was the earliest time that I could think of. And then, it occurred to me that Jules and I just might have some photos of the experience. And low and behold, I found it! It was pretty exciting for me actually.
The photo in question was taken on Halloween in 1987. I had suggested that Jules and I dress as each other for a party we had. She was a little unsure, but I convinced her. I wish we had a picture of the two of us together, but I could not find one. It probably exists somewhere.
I didn’t really think much of me suggesting that we dress as each other. I so wish I would have understood that dressing as a girl, or at least a mix of genders, was something that I wanted to do all of the time, and not just for Halloween. Oh well. Regardless, I thought it was just a quirky costume and that it was just for laughs. Ah… the naivete of youth!
Before I found it, I thought that I would look better as a girl back then, but I think age has taught me something about how to present myself. Ah… what 26 years will do for you!
Love you.
I wish I loved myself earlier.
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