Friday, March 24, 2017

Finally A Day For Fun

Sweater - White House Black Market - Similar
Jeans - 7 For All Mankind - Similar
Boots - Nine West - Similar
Belt - Mossimo - Similar

I finally took the time to go out and have some fun!  What has been absorbing my days you ask?  Why thank you!  Well, let me tell you, I have gotten it into my head to do a major remodeling project on my house.  What am I remodeling?  Well, I am removing the texture from all of my walls and all of my ceilings.  Fun stuff!!  I SO love spending hours upon hours with a sander above my head sanding ceilings.  OMG, so much fun!!  The thing about it is, I love how it looks once it is done.  Thus it motivates me to keep going.  But, I don't leave much time for myself to get out and have any fun!

On this day though, I took a day off from working, my regular job, and my home remodeling job, and my various hobbies, that actually are just other exhausting jobs and Jules and I went to the movies!  Yay!  Movie day!  We decided to go see Logan.  I heard Hugh Jackman explain it as being totally different from any other Marvel type of comic movie, and I would have to agree with him.  We enjoyed it, but it is an emotional journey, if you have been watching any of these movies that is.

Being super exhausted I wanted to wear something that is super comfy for me.  This combo of items fits that bill.  I really like the sweater.  It has patterns, black and white, and just a dash of color.  The pants are some of my faves.  Super comfy and a nice color wash.  The boots are also some of my old time favorites.  I like how tight they are and they make my feet look small!

I hope that you all are doing well!  Wow, looking back, I think I have only gotten fully dressed a handful of times within the last few months.  I started this home remodel quest several months ago and it is so time consuming!  I work all week long, and occasionally on the weekends for just my regular job, and to then come home and try and fit in a ginormous amount of work at home is just a bit exhausting.  Weird.  I put off doing this part of my house for at least ten years.  Now that I am engaged in it I just want to work, work, work until it is finished!

Well, guess what?  I woke up super early because this blog was on my mind.  Now that I have been awake for a few hours, and have finally written a bit of filler for these pages, it is time for me to go back to my house improvement project!  Yay!

Love you!

Love yourself!

Free yourself from your own constraints of what you think you can do!

Sunday, March 19, 2017

A Shoutout For My Article on Already Pretty

Howdy peeps!  Happy Sunday to you all.  I just wanted to do a quick plug for my article appearing today at Already Pretty.  It is about sizes and numbers and how those darn little things mean next to nothing!  So I suggest you go check it out over there!

Love ya!

BTW - my once little dog, Indy, is all grown up now!  I just weighed him the other day at 90.5lbs!  Wow!  He's huge!

Monday, March 13, 2017


One of the things I really enjoy doing is baking.  I have enjoyed it since a young kid and I continue to really enjoy it.  Though I do think it is a bit funny how many people tell me that they are so impressed by my baking talents and that it is amazing.  Maybe it is because they perceive me to be a male and are stereotypical in their gender assigned roles in life, i.e. men can't cook!  Ha!  Either assumption is wrong!  That men can't cook, and that I am a mere male! Ha!

Anywho....... I have really gotten much more into cookie making as of late.  I have inherited a family cookie cookbook and am currently working my way through it attempting to make every cookie in the book.  The book isn't that awesome of a thing.  It's not like some family heirloom.  It is just a Betty Crocker Cookie Book from like 1962 or some such thing.  I mean that does make it about 50-60 years old huh?

Okay, so I am making lots of cookies lately and one of the things I have struggled with is consistent cookie size.  It finally occurred to me to search Amazon for cookie scoops.  I mean, duh!  What took me so long??  It's almost as if I'm just an amature at all of this cooking stuff!  Ha!

Well Jules ended up buying me some different sized scoops for this past Christmas and I was super happy.  Until I took them out of their package.  Uh... super cheap!  I mean super super cheap!!  So cheap that one of the three was already broken and I didn't even care.  I told her, thank you very much but just send them back.  Off I went then onto the search for the awesome-est cookie scoops ever!

I happened upon the Jenaluca scoops.  They had pretty good reviews and appeared to be of high quality craftsmanship.  I took a gamble and ordered them.  I say a gamble, because they were some of the highest priced scoops available on Amazon.

Anywho...... they arrived in the mail and I excitedly opened them.  Immediately I could tell they are a high quality product.  They are made out of good material and are of an excellent design.  But low I was dismayed when I tried the smallest scoop and it stuck a minor amount.  Jules said I should just go with it as it still worked.  But really, when making cookies, lots of cookies, I really don't want anything to stick ever.  Besides for the price, who wants a mostly good product?  Nobody!

I thought about it for a day or so and then I emailed Jenaluca and explained what happened.  Within a day or two I got a reply that said how sorry they were and asked where they could send the replacement scoop.  Shocking!  I didn't even provide a receipt or anything!  I gave them my address and within two days, I had a replacement school at my door.  Inside the box was the new scoop, which operated perfectly, and the kicker?  They included a handwritten note explaining how sorry they were for their negligence in having provided a product that clearly missed their quality control!

Wow!  I was simply amazed by their customer service!  I mean they make a great product, but to also give such awesome customer service, they have earned a customer for life!  I am really curious what else this awesome company makes!

So..... if you are in the market for awesome scoops, check out Jenaluca!


I know this is just a lowly little blog and all.

And I know that I gain something off of advertising products and you clicking on them.

But seriously!  These things are great and this company rocks!

Love you!

Thursday, March 2, 2017

Love This Suit Fabric Dress

Dress - White House Black Market - Similar
Shoes - Naturalizer - Similar 
Belt - Mossimo - Similar

This dress caught my eye during my last shopping trip for a variety of reasons.  First off, I really do like the color.  I mean I am a black and white girl, but shades of grey are within that realm, right?  Well I think they are.  As well, I really like the stitching on this dress.  They did the stitching in curves, which really adds a great element to it.  I don't know if you can see the stitching all that well in the above photo.  I think it comes out better in the photo below.

I wore this dress while Jules and I were in Long Beach and it was super chilly!  If you were around LA during this time, it was over the President's Day Weekend when that wicked storm came in a flooded everything.  So it was pretty darn chilly!  But I had brought the dress specifically to wear out to dinner on this evening, so I braved the chilliness and went for it!

Okie dokie folks!

Hope you are well!

Love you!

Love yourself!

Friday, February 24, 2017

It Looks Clear

That is a line from Pitch Black, starring Vin Diesel.  It was possibly one of the first movies I ever saw with Vin in it.  I like science fiction movies and this fits the bill for sure.  I don't know if I would say that it is a good movie, but I do enjoy watching it.  That ends up being an interesting thing in that Jules and I will often watch and rewatch certain movies over and over.  This happens to be one of them.

Okay, way too much detail about an irrelevant thing.  In the movie Vin has the ability to see in the dark and at some point someone asks him if the way they need to go is clear.  Vin's response is to say that it looks clear.  Someone is about to walk that way when all of a sudden a monster flies past them almost killing them.  That character then says to Vin, I thought you said it was clear.  The response from Vin is - I said it looks clear.  

I've always had a thing for word play humor and that set of lines from the movie has always amused me and Jules and I have adopted it.  We will often say to each other, well, it looks clear.  And we both understand what that means.  To the best of our knowledge it looks good, but who knows, we may very well be missing the monster ready to jump out and bite our heads off.

This is a frequent saying to each other when we leave hotel rooms.  We will pack up all of our things and cart them back out to the car before doing a last walk around the hotel room.  Generally around that time, once we think we have everything, we will both look at each other and state - well it looks clear.

Well this last weekend we were in the Long Beach, CA area and we both thought it looked clear.  Loe it was with great disappointment that I discovered I left my only set of forms at the hotel.  Ooops I lost my boobs!  Ha!  An unfortunate side effect of having detachable boobs!  Sure they are convenient, but you might just accidentally leave them behind!  Yikes!

Kindly, Jules called the hotel and asked if the maid had found a pair of prosthetic breasts.  He said that he would check with house cleaning services.  She then asked if he knew what she was talking about.  He said he thought he did.  She clarified for him that he was looking for a small pair of fake breasts.  He said he would phone if he found anything.  Guess what?  He never phoned!

Do you know why?  I suspect I do.  The maid found them, and was probably a bit weirded out thinking she found somebody's sexual fetish play toys and threw them away!

Regardless, I no longer have them.  Which is highly unfortunate as they were about $180.  I really hate making such stupid mistakes!  But whatcha gonna do?  I thought it looked clear!  Oh well.  I actually really didn't use them all that much.  They were not my primary go to, they were just something quick, simple, and easy to use when I dress in an in between mode.  So.... I will replace them, but I don't think I will go with such expensive ones!  I've seen some on Amazon at much more reasonable prices.

I will let you know.

In the meantime, if you happen to find a pair of lost breast forms roaming around Long Beach, CA, let me know.  Ha!


It looked clear.

Well, how does it look now?

Looks clear.

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Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Clean Lines

Top - White House Black Market - Similar
Jeans - Guess - Similar
Shoes - Madden Girl - Similar

This is a top I acquired on my last shopping trip.  Yes, my last shopping trip for a year!  Yikes!  Anywho..... I got it at my favorite store, White House Black Market.  I really like that place!  Good clothes, and great customer service, what more could one ask for?  Love it!  Anyway, this top is a bit unusual for me.  So unusual that Jules mentioned that it was her type of top and not mine.  Which is funny as she and I often have very different taste.

The thing I don't really like about this outfit are how the pants are laying.  I really wish that the pants had a much straighter line to them when falling down around my shoes.  I think that look would look really good with the top.  As it is with the pants kind of bunching up a bit around my ankles, gives the overall look kind of a slouchy feel.  Just a tiny complaint, but an issue for me nonetheless.

I wore this outfit while out in Long Beach for the weekend.  Jules and I had a fairly mellow day this occasion.  We went out to breakfast, and then to a movie.  We saw The Great Wall.  The movie was just okay.  Another Westerner showing the rest of the world how to live.  Apparently Matt Damon is in it though because the people in China wanted his star power.  They really like the movie in China.  Maybe we are too jaded here in the US.  Hmm????

Okay.  That's about it.

Love you!

Love yourselves!!

Seriously, it's important!

Monday, February 13, 2017

A Bit of Both

I wouldn't really say that I am doing HRT, hormone replacement therapy, but I would suppose that on some level I am affecting my hormones.  You may remember from awhile back a post I wrote about my doctor when I asked about taking Finasteride, instead of the drug I was taking (Tamsulosin.)  During that visit she denied my request.  Well about two month ago I visited the doctor that originally prescribed me the Tamsulosin.  When I asked him about Finasteride, he explained the medication and the application to my condition and in the end prescribed it to me.

Since then I have been taking the little pill every morning.  I am taking any of these drugs to help my BPH.  So technically I am not taking hormones because of my gender variance.  But, again, according to, Finasteride reduces the amount of the hormone dihydrotestosterone.  This would place it in the category of an anti-androgyne.  It is generally not prescribed for transition.  It normally is prescribed for male pattern baldness and for treating BPH.  For male pattern baldness it is given a dose of 1mg per day, while for BPH it is given at 5mg per day.  I am on the 5 mg per day regimen.

Many people do not like taking the drug as they are afraid of the possible side effects.  The most frightening of those effects being gynecomastia.  My doctor warned me of that possibility and asked if I was okay with that potential.  Maybe I was afraid of his response, but I just let him know that I was fine with that potentiality and chose not to elaborate.  And from what I can tell, it actually has a very low rate of occurrence.  My doctor was way more concerned with how it might affect my libido more than anything else.

So..... here I am.  Where does that put me?  Taking hormones?  Well no, but taking something that affects my hormone levels?  Yup.  Taking something that makes it so that I have less testosterone running around freely within my system?  Yup.

And how does it feel?  Fine.  Well maybe a bit weird.  Weird you ask?  Yup, weird.  Weird I suppose because I am not sure of where that places me within the whole scheme of things.  As in, am I destined to eventually transition to presenting female full time and I am just on some sort of super slow long looping slide towards that eventuality?  On the one hand, I am taking an anti-androgyne for a prostate condition, not to transition, and on the other, I asked for this drug because I know it is an anti-androgyne.  So am I taking it in hopes of potential transition leaning side effects?  Possibly.

Really I think that it actually is very fitting for me.  It's a bit of both.  I'm really not afraid to fully transition, I just know I don't want to.  But at the same time I know that I am not interested in living as a traditional male either.  What do I want?  A bit of both.  I want to live somewhere in the middle of the spectrum; a bit of male, a bit of female, a bit of both.  I actually am pretty happy to be taking Finasteride.  It helps with hair loss, which I am experiencing.  It helps with BPH, which is needed.  Oh and hey, it has a possible side of effect of giving me boobs.  Kind of like a win, win, win!

Okie dokie!  That's all folks!

Love you!

Love yourself!

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